December 04, 2008
A spectacular failure
If we don't succeed, we run the risk of failure.
Anonymous (often attributed to Dan Quayle)
I'm about to fail in a spectacular way. I have been up most of the night (and a whole lot of nights, recently) worrying about this. And, in fact, I've been jittery for weeks trying to figure out how to do what I think is an impossible job. At least, impossible for me.
Honestly, I haven't let people down too often in my career. I was hired years ago to write a horror novel and a script for a producer in L.A. He continued to change the plot as I was working, calling me in the middle of the night to add a serial killer, to make a tie-in to the Salem witch trials, to "have the sofa fly across the room." No matter what I did, he added new hurdles, until finally, I simply had to be done. This is a different scenario. But I have to keep reminding myself that generally speaking, I come through. 45 anthologies. 25 novels. Lots of stories.
I can't even tally the amount of hours I've put into this project, which is another reason I feel slightly ill.
Nothing really to add to that. Except remember to vote, and to read the latest gossip about Sommer Marsden, the slut.