January 07, 2010

Choose Beauty

2009 ravaged me. I didn't sleep well. I didn't eat well. And I worried all the fricking time. You can see 2009 in the hollows under my eyes and the lines in my forehead. You can see 2009 in all of the recent photographs of me. But I don't care. Because 2010 is the year I've decided to choose beauty.

Do you know what I mean? The lines are there to stay, but the attitude behind the lines has shifted. See, I am embracing the frippery again. I am reveling in colors and silver-dangling earrings that nearly hit my shoulders, and glossy black leather boots that ride higher than my knees. And I'm even embracing those hollows and smudge-marks under my eyes. Because we lived through a year. Sam has the actual scars—and I have the worry scars. And fucking hell if I'm not going to wear them with pride.

The other afternoon, I ran into a deejay we know. Carly said, "Do you know how Sam talks about you?"

"What do you mean?"

"Your name comes up and he says, 'Isn't my wife beautiful?'"

Truly. So this year, I'm going to be. Lines and scars and hollows and all.

And I was wondering... won't you choose beauty with me?


P.S. This tiny camera necklace is only one of many charming items I am lusting after by phoebe marie, who has the most fabulous intro ever: "hi. i'm phoebe marie. i like photography and cupcakes and things that are deadly."


Jo said...

Ooo, that reminds me of a bitchy blog post I read by a woman talking about how she didn't post pictures of her kids and cupcakes etc and I just thought GRRR. There's no fucking need for that!

Choose cupcakes.

And beauty, beauty is good. Actually, I found an ancient diary page that had a sweet little ... hmm. Yeah, I might email you that one :)

Jeremy Edwards said...

Vive la friperie!

Shanna Germain said...

Lines and scars ARE the beauty in my book! And over at Oh Get a Grip! it's all about Beauty this week. http://ohgetagrip.blogspot.com/

Jo said...

Hmm, Shanna. Did you see this?


Scarlett Greyson said...

I'll choose beauty with you AT. I'll add it to my other theme for the year - Unmasked.

And here here, Jo! Choose cupcakes and fripperies and living life :)

Angell said...

Count me in AT. Also I'm choosing to love myself this year (and am stocking up on batteries to help) LOL.

Sophia Valenti said...

All those little bits of experience, good and bad, leave a mark. But how we look at the world and how we live? That's entirely in our own hands.

So, yes, I'm with you. I'm choosing beauty—and not looking back.